8 – Marry Me
I really need to stop… this is the third time I have checked on Bella since she had fallen asleep and I am starting to irritate myself. I put the new figurine I bought her on her nightstand, at least I know she likes them. This one is made of rose gold and the antlers are covered in small diamonds. I walk out to check on my dad.
“Capo, you need to see this” Johnny tells me as I walk into my dad’s study.
I take the phone from his hand and enlarge the picture he took with my thumb and index finger
“Boot print?” I mumble with furrowed brows
“The boys found it next to Bella’s car at the cemetery and it’s not one of ours” my dad says
“Are you sure?”
I nod looking at my dad, we have the same blank expressions on our faces but I know the chaos on the inside. Someone followed her to the cemetery.
“Thanks Johnny, send me the photo” I tell him handing his phone back. He nods and walks out, closing the door behind him
“What is our next move?” I ask my dad
“Well, that depends on you and Bella. If you decide to get married we will gather a small army and if you decide not to we will move in six days” he says shrugging
“Just like that?”
“Don’t sound so surprised, your old man can still hustle”
I chuckle at my dad and take the seat in front of him. I know very well what he can do.
“We need to tell Bella, she needs to understand how serious this is” I tell my dad and he nods
The door to the study opens and Bella walks in. I press my lips together to stop myself from grinning at her. Her hair is tangled and her eyes are puffy, she just woke up and came directly down stairs to find us.
“Tell me what?” she asks yawning, plumping herself in the seat next to mine
I openly stare at her, I really don’t give a fuck because she knows I like her. I’d like to stare at her for the rest of my life. Her head slowly turns in my direction and she blinks at me a couple of times before her cheeks turn bright red. I smirk at her and she quickly looks away
“There was someone with you at the cemetery, they followed you. I think they wanted to see why you were there”
“What?” Bella gasps with big eyes staring at me and my heart fucking melts
My dad hums nodding his head so I tell her “its serious Bella, you can’t go anywhere alone anymore” I plead
“I am really sorry, it won’t happen again” she says softly looking down at where she is fiddling with her fingers.
“Okay, just tell me. Anytime, anywhere you want to go, you wont loose your freedom over this” I reassure her because I don’t want her living in fear
Bella nods and smiles at me and a warmth floods my chest like there is an ocean inside of me. She looks back at Jo and I sense some nervousness from her again.
“I would very much like to kill my mother” she says softly
“Sure, but it’s not necessary” Jo answers
“Because your mother lost her mind not long after leaving you. She is institutionalized at Sunny Acres in Derbermount.”
“What happened?” I ask because Bella is staring at Jo shocked
“She had a taste for the white powder, she loved to party and was more drunk then sober. That wasn’t enough though so she got into what the boys call Neon nod, you know heroin and acid. Anyway she was found one morning by a couple of Garbage-men in an ally doing their route.”
“Holy shit” I say and Bella just nods
“She was naked and covered in her own blood. She had been raped repeatedly and tortured. They rushed her to the hospital but when she woke up all she kept screaming was “The purple man” she tried to stab a nurse and she attacked a doctor, when they came into her room she had tried to kill herself by stealing the other patients IV’s and hooking it up to herself. There were needles everywhere I heard. So she was sent to the nut house.” Jo says shrugging
“Who is the purple man?” Bella asks cautiously
“Nobody knows and she is in no state to tell anyone. She has never recovered”
“Wow” she whispers “I have always hated drugs”
Jo nods “its ugly business”
“I want to go see her; I need to” Bella says
It makes my skin crawl just to think that she will be anywhere near that woman but Bella has never had any closure, it has always been taken away from her by someone else and I understand that she needs this. I am grateful I had time to say goodbye to my mother. Jo stares at her for a moment and I know he has the same turmoil on the inside as me so I try to ease his mind
“I will be with her the entire time, she won’t pee alone” I say with a smirk to lighten the mood
Bella’s eyes dart between me and Jo and finally my dad agrees
“You do not even scratch and itch without telling him, do you understand?” Jo says in stern voice pointing at Bella
She swallows hard “Yes Pop”
“Hmm, alright let’s go eat”
Later that night
“Oh! I’m sorry, I will come back later” Bella squeals turning bright red
“No don’t worry let me grab my pants” I tell her smirking
I had just gotten out of the shower and wrapped my towel around my lower body covering what it should, not that I would mind if Bella saw me naked. She spins around and waits for me to get dressed. I chuckle softly slipping in to my navy pajama pants.
“I really should’ve knocked” she whispers
“You don’t ever need to knock Bella” I tell honestly as she turns to face me
Bella smiles at me and she seems nervous because she is fiddling with her fingers again and that lovely red blush hasn’t left her cheeks yet.
“To what do I owe the pleasure little fawn?”
“I… um, wanted to say thank you for the deer. Its beautiful and I love it.”
I tilt my head furrowing my brows at her because I can see from her expression that it’s not all she wanted to say. She slowly approaches me darting her eyes around before looking at me again with a small smile
“Happy birthday, I am sorry it was late this year” I tell her
She nods stopping right in front of me
“I also want to tell you, I mean ask you… um, I just, if you want, because I do…” she stutters
“Bella tell me?”
“I want to marry you” she rushes out
“You do?” I ask shocked trying my best to keep my voice even.
I cautiously put my hands around her waist; partly because I love looking into her eyes but mostly to stop myself from falling over my own feet.
“Yes, I have always felt the presence of someone watching me I just didn’t know it was you and I suspect you have helped me out a couple times. I feel like I know you somehow” she laughs nervously
I nod slowly not denying anything because there have been times I visited a few guys who were getting too friendly with her or in my opinion looked dangerous. One such time was when a low life street thug tried to steal her handbag; he ate with a straw for a few months.
“You have protected me… a little overprotective, but I understand why” she whispers
I gently run my fingers up and down her sides and Goosebumps shoot up her arms
“I have and I am, yes.”
“Sorry about your face” she says running her cool hands over my swollen nose
“I had it coming” I say smiling
She nods looking at me expectantly “Do you want to?” she asks softly
It takes me a moment to understand what she is asking because it is so obvious in my mind
“Of course I want to. I have wanted you all my life Bella. I would marry you right now if I could” I say honestly because she was it for me.
Bella puts her arms around my neck and leans herself against me, reaching up on her toes. My heart is racing and I remind myself to breathe. I hug her as close to me as I possibly can. Her breasts push against my chest and a soft moan escapes her lips speaking directly to my manhood. I gently kiss her soft lips but I want more so I move my hands down to her ass and squeeze lightly pushing her against my erection. Bella gasps and I push my tongue inside her mouth exploring every bit of her mouth. Bella groans and it takes absolutely all my self-restraint not to rip her clothes off.
“You taste like more” I whisper in to her mouth
“More?” Bella asks panting
“I want more, I want all of you” I answer kissing her neck
“Adam” she moans and I move my hand to her breast, teasing her through her t-shirt
“That feels so good” she moans again
“Bella I want to pleasure you” I say nibbling and biting her neck
“I have… I have never” she pants
“I know little fawn and I will make your first time special; it wont be tonight” I say full of need
“Okay” she whimpers
I slowly run my fingers down her stomach and her breath catches. I smile to myself because I love how responsive her body is to me. I push her pajamas shorts off with my fingers and she wiggles them down her beautiful legs. Running my hands over her curvy hips and thighs I feel like my pants are going to explode. Bella isn’t skinny and she isn’t heavy, she is just perfect like some kind of forgotten painting brought to life. It drives me insane to look at her, this luscious woman with her perfect curves and big eyes.
“You feel like heaven Bella” I whisper
Bella groans and starts kissing my bare chest. I have to remind myself to be gentle with her. Her inexperience, just exploring me is turning me on like I have never been in my life. I glide my fingers up her inner thigh and Bella gasp again letting out a moan when I gently touch her warmth
“Adam” she whines
“Easy baby, take it slow” I whisper
Bella nods and I motion for her to lay down on the bed.
“Take off your shirt little fawn”
She slips off her shirt and lays down on the bed looking up at me with those big eyes full of want and it makes me swallow hard.
“Fuck, you are so beautiful” I tell her and she blushes a deep red again
I climb on top of Bella and she reaches for my shoulders running her hands up and down my arms looking at all my scars. Her eyes lock with mine and we stare at each for a few seconds
“You are the most handsome man I have ever seen”
My heart jumps in my chest and my pulse races from her words. I lean down and kiss her deeply earning me another moan. I work my way down from her lips to her breast and I suck her nipple into my mouth teasing her with my tongue. Bella shivers below me panting so I work my way further down over her stomach and she digs her fingers into my hair
“Adam” whimpers again
“Breathe baby” I say softly kissing her inner thigh